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Returned

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We returned home about a week ago.
It's been a rocky start but I believe we are finally settling in and becoming a family once more.

Vivianne loves her daddy but mommy is still her prefered person when it's time to go to bed.


Between all the people, adjustment and cleaning, I have been trying to work on a drawing, so expect one at some point. I hope.

It's a slow process.
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Birth control is a total bitch.
I had the Nexplanon since mid-May without much issue until suddenly, near the end of July, I snapped.
All August only got worse and worse as the hormones from the implant destroyed who I am.
I was overly aggressive, getting easily pissed off or annoyed over simple things, then the depression hit. I thought "Maybe I'm still adjusting... Just have to push through." but having depression seemed off. I'm being treated for that, doing fantastically, now suddenly I'm falling into the dark, downward spiral that eats every little light of ray you have.

At the end of August, I had a massive mental break down along with a suicide plan. Nothing mattered. I wanted it all to stop but a little part of me knew I've got to keep pushing through.
I scheduled an appointment, had the Nexplanon taken out, had Mirena put in and now,

I.
Am.
Awesome!


Fuck Nexplanon in the face.

Happy note - After all this bullshit, Nathan and I got engaged as of September 17th.

Vivianne and I are expected to fly back to Alaska here in the next few weeks or so.
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I'll keep this short since I don't feel much like typing ALL the details.

I broke up with Deej. We're still close friends. I was unhappy, tried to kill myself, became a total bitch to him, he deserves better.

I began seeing a boy named Nathan, who during our time together (from March 2013 to currently) went from friend to lover.
We found out we were expecting a few months into our transitioning phase from friends to lovers and decided to have the baby.

During this time, he manned up A LOT even though we kept getting constantly screwed over and put in shitty situations.

Our Little Rain Cloud (Vivianne) was born March 3, 2014.

Then I suffered from PPD, came to be with my mother in WA until I was better because Nate works 3 weeks at a time away from home.
One thing lead to another, I've moved down here and Nate is soon to follow after he squares away some stuff in Alaska.

In short -
* New relationship
* Became a mother
* Have a daughter
* Moved to Washington from Alaska.
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*pop*

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I'm still around. Just barely touch this thing.
I haven't finished a drawing in who knows how long, have been crocheting again, and yet I always forget I have this "art page" to upload stuff onto and get my ego stroked.

Oh well.

Been working on character stories and backgrounds, wanting to start a basic outline for a comic.

Tanya is away in basic, which has depressed me. I've never felt so alone.
Deej is here, but it's not the same without my unicorn.

A little gloomy for an update.
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Engaged!

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Long story short, Deej and I went to California in March.
He proposed in front of the castle after the fireworks had gone off.

There's a video of it, but I swore a lot, so I'm not posting that publicly.

Of course I said yes!


There is no date set for the wedding, because we're taking our sweet time.

That's about it.
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